My life, my dominion

While i know i'm bein mean i really have to state this happening
Was at hard rock cafe yesterday (i rarely state definitive locations and people right? new huh) and this guy suddenly went up to the mike to sing. Well people don't USUALLY do such things so i was thinking either a) he was performing live for that night which was bad, singaporeans in general can't sing which really spoils my appetite or b) something special for his girlfriend.c) he's going to make a fool out of himself

Turned out to be B) he proposed
Then C) he did it publicly and she said no.

OUCH!
OH well dunno why the people at my table kept looking down, i'd be thinking if he has the balls to say it, then give him the dignity on carrying on with whatever we're doing and not make him feel bad lah! Chee-ee! Oh well tough for him though. Reasons why one should never publicly propose unless you're real sure, and even then you should have a back-up gag or something to make it look like it's a colossal joke.

Ha.

Oh i'm going to withdraw my donation despite the resignations. I strongly feel that it's about time they bled their blasted reserves. I mean hey, each year you take so much of the pie, give others' a chance. It's charity, does that mean you care for only your flock? No offense but i'm sure there are just as many elderly patients with heart failure and dementia who need care as there are kidney failures. And kids with special needs are always overlooked. *at thsi point in time i actually typed out a very violent attack at a certain kid who's a spokesperson because i can't stand his 'innocent' remarks but then i'm trying to tone down*
I hope more people withdraw, otherwise, if we repledge then they'll just take it that the PR war has been won no need for further changes.

yeah judging from my history somehow i think this is rather contradictory. but i guess even volunteers get irked.

I'm quite sure many of you have played hide and seek.
Actually, then again i'm no so sure, most people KNOW what it is more from reading and watching tv than really playing the game.

Around the time i was 11-12 i used to play a 'turbo mode' version in school. We dubbed it hide and catch so basically the game aint up till you actually tap the bugger. ANd even then you could still have jail breaks. Typically we played to the ration of 2 to 5 or 3 to 5 because the catchers just die after recess.

IN any case the strange thing about this game is that we knew where everyone was hiding or at least all the hiding spots. the trick was to either avoid the catcher by changing spots or breaking out of jail provided you knew where it was (location decided by catchers). THe funniest thing is that sometime we or I would always get caught more or less in the same places.

I think we all just want a hole to hide in. Our hiding place away from others. THere are things we want to bury in that hole as well. Things we don't want ANYONE to know. If possible we'd rather if God himself didn't know.

strange huh?

I just love the chorus of this song. heh you really just want to scream it out sometimes.

"Vindicated" Dashboard Confessional

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye

And roped me in
So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
I am captivated

[Chorus]
I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along

And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that

[Chorus]

So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away [3x]
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away [4x]

[Chorus]

Slight hope
It dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...

Blessid Union Of Souls
Light In Your Eyes

I can't remember the last time that we kissed goodbye
All our "I love you's" were just not enough to survive
Something your eyes never told me
But it's only now too plain to see
Brilliant disguise when you hold me
And I'm free
I've been thinking and here's what I've come to conclude
Sometimes the distance is more than two people can use
But how could I have known girl
It was time and not space you would need
Darling tonight I could hold you and you would know
But would you believe
There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
There's a place in your heart where I used to be
Was I wrong to assume that you were waiting for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me
Cards and phone calls and photograph pictures of you
Constant reminder of all the things you get used to
Is there a chance in hell or heaven
That there's still something here to build on
Or do you just pick up the pieces after they fall
But after all
There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
And a song in the words that you spoke to me
Was I wrong to believe in your melody
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me
Should I keep on waiting or does love keep on fading away
Fading away
It's been a while since I've seen you so how have you been
Did you get my letter I wrote you, but I did not send
I tried to call your old number
But the voice that I heard on the phone
I recognized but she told me the number was wrong
There's a light in my eyes but it's too bright to see
And a pain in my heart where you used to be
Guess I was wrong to assume that you were waiting here for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me

VERTICAL HORIZON LYRICS

"Best I Ever Had (Grey Sky Morning)"

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now

[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had

So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely

Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better

[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had

And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted

[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had
The best I ever had
The best I ever

A few days ago at a bus stop i was talking to a friend of mine. He's a non-christian and although i can't remember how we were talking about God.

While i know that i lambasted a previous article about not finding God in the wrong places, i am fully convinced that God reveals himself through the most unusual ways (as long as they gratify Him and he is NOT misquoted).

I was explaining to my friend about one of the major paradox of life, God's granting of free will and predestination by God's perfect plan.

Of which my friend asked me, 'how can you believe in a God you can't understand?' I answered as any good Christian would, with the story of Job and how God had asked him things like how the earth was made and all. In the end job realised that he can never fathom God's ways and should not attempt to. Therefore he just believes and is grateful.

After a lengthy explanation (which i am usually prone to) my friend asked me another question that should have been my answer. In fact his reply/question was so profound that i was stunned by the simplicity yet poignancy and importance his statement carried for me.

My friend asked, ' So you basically have faith in God.'

What an interesting question. I believe in something i cannot understand, have never seen simply because i have Faith.

I do not believe because I can reason that he exists. I do not believe because i have a head full of bible knowledge. I believe because I have FAITH in God and through that comes the understanding.

First and foremost we are called to believe and have faith.


Hebrews 11:1-2
By Faith
1Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. 2This is what the ancients were commended for.
3By faith we understand that the universe was formed at God's command, so that what is seen was not made out of what was visible.

Have faith and you will see.