My life, my dominion

I think socialising is a drug, really.
It's like clubbing, you get into the lifestyle and you just don't want it to end.
YOu go socialising, you see all the glitz and glam and then you just start day dreaming about it 24/7 like a total fool. Gee whiz, i feel so um um superficial. So that's what's happened to me now, i'm so empty i have nothing in my mind except one night of fun. Crap....
Yes it was fun, a good break from the monotony of life but yeah does it have to dictate my every thought right now? HELP HELP brain is very very woozy.
YUp this is pretty much like what i wrote after prom, i just can't remember the which year. I was rather sarcastic and melancholic about it, heh. Well that's me, old bad attitude nerd. muahahahahahhaa
I think i've really descended into a world of escapism, i try to find make belief worlds in cartoons, toys, and day dreaming. What a sad case. I'm pathetic. I just really really hate this life of mine right now. Iv'e got so much ahead, why the bloody hell must this damnned obstacle come in front of me????? CRAP CRAP CRAP!
SIGH...............
Someone just shoot me