My life, my dominion

I think everyone's lives are just too full of things to worry about. I think that sometimes we push ourselves too hard. or that we deliberately cram our lives with so much junk so that it becomes an excuse for us to not do what needs to be done. We are such pathetic creatures.

Anyhow i think it's a good to just list out everything that is on my mind right now so that i can at least just see what they are.

1. Church work, there seems to be so much yet so little i can do
2. Work, dunno where i'm going, and when i do get where i'm supposed to go then what do i do. I don't know anything!
3. Family, there are some things well, let's just put it that things are just different, very different.
4. Relationships, i really dunno where i'm going with this long dist relationship. I dunno how it's going to turn out neither do i know how to make it last. I'm just so lost.
5. Me, i've changed. I'm not me. I right now suck. I've got a lousy personality, my temper has gotten worst, i've become a nervous wreck half the time, i've become very hostile. I dunno, it's like mr hyde totally took over me.
6. university. I ain't going in so soon but well doesn't mean that i don't worry aobut it. what happens when i don't do well? what? What if i chose the wrong course. I've never had experience in it. What if i can't cope? ARGH!!!!

Sigh........... SIGH............ Nuts, just so NUTS.