My life, my dominion

So finally, i've given into the global trend and started my own damned blog.
Somehow i have no idea why i do this. Perhaps it's just in my nature to keep everything to myself. I don't like being a burden to others with my problems, neither do i like having this feeling that i have no outlet. i guess lots of people who blog have that same problem. Their not lonely, yet they fell so isolated. I remember someone telling me once that only crazy people talk to themselves, i wonder if blogging is considered crazy. i dunno. YOU're not exactly talking to yourself, more like the entire world, but rather the only people who are actually going to bother about what you say is yourself so by default you are just talking to yourself. How interesting.

ANyhow, right now i'm going through a personal crisis. And this is seriously the only way i know how to let things out. My mind has totally stalled and i'm not functioning.
Call me selfish but i haven't had time to myself for a really long time. i haven't had well enough free RAM heh in my brain to focus on me.

In the past few months i have changed totally. I'm not who i used to be neither am i who i want to be. NIght after night, i stay up late, watching television wilil the wee hours of the morning just so that i can forget about the troubles on my mind.

I know that i should do something about them but i'm just so paralysed by the sheer amount of things that need to be done and the fact that none of them can go wrong. i'm just so tired. So very tired